Why does reality always differ so much from our dreams? is it because dreams are just what we wish things to be, and thus is not possible for them to happen? or is it because dreams are just lazy thoughts that we wish for it to happen to us? just like people say dreams are beautiful while reality is harsh... none of us want things to turn out bad for themselves, no one wants to be unhappy, so maybe thats why dreams exist... maybe its just something we can fall back on should reality be too much for us to handle... somewhere for us to hide and recover from our setbacks... how often does our dreams really come true?
the world in which our dreams lie, is so much different from the world in which reality resides in, dont u think so? i dont think the world that we so much wants to see, wants to live in, wants to be in, has wars raging on in parts of the globe, has poverty, has loved ones taken away just in the blink of an eye... there is so much more that we dream of having, but its just the opposite of whats happening in reality...
take love for an example, who in the world doesnt dream of finding the one they really love, hoping that the latter also feels the same way they feel towards him/her... how many wouldnt dream of spending the rest of their lives happily and blissfully with the ones they love... but in reality, how many couples are able to withstand the obstacles thrown at them along their journey together? how many people are able to say that she/he is the one that they want to spend the rest of their lives with... who would want to fall in love someone thinking that they were meant to be, only to separate after time when feelings start to fade and the love starts to become bland...
another example would be money... in most of our dreams, we wished that we were rich... so that we didnt have to worry about having a low standard of living, being able to buy what we need and being able to support our extravagant lifestyle, seeing that in this society now, money is almost everything... without money, u cant afford anything... u wont be able to support yourself not to say a family, u wont be able to live the luxurious life that everyone is craving for and in the end, u will end up with nothing, without love and without a purpose... but look at reality, how many poor people we have in this world... how many beggars can we see on the streets as we walk down each day, and of the beggars, how many of them are kids?
so u see, there's so much difference between reality and dreams... how can we differentiate which is reality and dreams... will our dreams come true one day? or will dreams remain forever as just...... dreams?
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Loneliness
never thought i would be saying this... im feeling lonely... the past few times my parents and my sis have gone overseas without me, i have not felt lonely... maybe its because the past few times, there was someone else around to keep me company when they aint around... but now, seeing that eileen and my family are on holiday, im left alone at home... the fact that i have to do duty every alternate day isnt helping much... when i come back the next day after duty, the whole house is so empty and quiet... i used to think that i liked it alot... i have to admit as much as i like to have peace, at times i will still feel the need for someone to be with me... maybe its just like what i told jo the other time, the both of us cannot stand being alone, cannot stand being lonely... we need to have someone with us all the time... be it family, friends or even girlfriend/boyfriend... we just cant stand the feeling of being lonesome...
luckily, eileen will be back on wed, and we can keep each other company from thurs onwards since i have duty on wednesday...
luckily, eileen will be back on wed, and we can keep each other company from thurs onwards since i have duty on wednesday...
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
曹格 - 背叛
背叛
曲：曹格
词：阿丹、邬裕康
编曲：凃惠源
雨
不停落下来
花
怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人
欣赏悲哀
爱
只剩下无奈
我
一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹著空白
缺了一块
就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何
Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管
只要你能愉快
心
有一句感慨
我
还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在
曲：曹格
词：阿丹、邬裕康
编曲：凃惠源
雨
不停落下来
花
怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人
欣赏悲哀
爱
只剩下无奈
我
一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹著空白
缺了一块
就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何
Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管
只要你能愉快
心
有一句感慨
我
还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在
Why Do I Even Bother
why do i even bother to read it when i know that i will feel miserable after reading it... i dont know how to describe how im feeling now, lets just say it hurts alot...
*CAN THE PAIN PLEASE JUST GO AWAY*
*CAN THE PAIN PLEASE JUST GO AWAY*
Monday, May 7, 2007
F.I.R - 你很爱他
When I Think About The Past
sometimes, it feels good just sitting up in bed with the lights turned off and thinking about things... that sense of tranquility is so soothing to the mind and heart... but sometimes, when i start to think about the past, it kind of dampens the emotions...
i thought that i have completely forgotten about the past, about her, about the times we had spent together, be it happy or sad... things that should have been forgotten, resurfaced again... is it because i have been comparing the both of them, only to find that there are certain aspects that i see in yj n not in eileen? is it because certain things that i love or like can only be found in yj and not eileen? eileen would actually fit the qualities of a girlfriend im looking for. someone who is simple, who doesnt put on any make up or maybe a little, doesnt spend much... she is the direct opposite of yj... but if she is what i have always wanted, den why is it i keep comparing her to yj in terms of things that im hoping for... maybe i need some more time to get over yj completely, but i still want to be together with eileen? i know i like eileen, but i still need time to get over the previous relationship... time is something i hope that i still have... i dont want to think of the past, can i?
seems like a lot of thoughts have been going through my mind these few days...
when i was watching tv earlier, there was an advertisement on a documentary featuring ppl with different talents. this led me to think of the party that yj once attended, one that i regretted letting her go for, but oh well thats not the point... the point is that at that party she told me of all the ppl she met... even though they were ppl who held good jobs, some were very good with drawing, the others had individual talents... den when i think of myself, i just cant find something that im good at... i cant find an individual talent that im proud of myself to have... i cant draw that well, i cant sing that well, i cant do anything well at all... true, alot of ppl are saying that i can give them good advice, im always there to help them, but all these are not a talent... its just plain old me trying to do the least that i can do... i cant think of anything that i can do, that others cant, and there's nothing for me to be proud of myself... maybe im low on self-confidence at the moment... *sigh* will someone please tell me something that im good at? something that i should feel proud of myself for?
i just feel so miserable atm... i want to tell someone especially eileen everything, but who's willing to listen... is she ready to know what has happened, or am i the one whos not ready for it?
i thought that i have completely forgotten about the past, about her, about the times we had spent together, be it happy or sad... things that should have been forgotten, resurfaced again... is it because i have been comparing the both of them, only to find that there are certain aspects that i see in yj n not in eileen? is it because certain things that i love or like can only be found in yj and not eileen? eileen would actually fit the qualities of a girlfriend im looking for. someone who is simple, who doesnt put on any make up or maybe a little, doesnt spend much... she is the direct opposite of yj... but if she is what i have always wanted, den why is it i keep comparing her to yj in terms of things that im hoping for... maybe i need some more time to get over yj completely, but i still want to be together with eileen? i know i like eileen, but i still need time to get over the previous relationship... time is something i hope that i still have... i dont want to think of the past, can i?
seems like a lot of thoughts have been going through my mind these few days...
when i was watching tv earlier, there was an advertisement on a documentary featuring ppl with different talents. this led me to think of the party that yj once attended, one that i regretted letting her go for, but oh well thats not the point... the point is that at that party she told me of all the ppl she met... even though they were ppl who held good jobs, some were very good with drawing, the others had individual talents... den when i think of myself, i just cant find something that im good at... i cant find an individual talent that im proud of myself to have... i cant draw that well, i cant sing that well, i cant do anything well at all... true, alot of ppl are saying that i can give them good advice, im always there to help them, but all these are not a talent... its just plain old me trying to do the least that i can do... i cant think of anything that i can do, that others cant, and there's nothing for me to be proud of myself... maybe im low on self-confidence at the moment... *sigh* will someone please tell me something that im good at? something that i should feel proud of myself for?
i just feel so miserable atm... i want to tell someone especially eileen everything, but who's willing to listen... is she ready to know what has happened, or am i the one whos not ready for it?
Thursday, May 3, 2007
There She Goes !!!
haiz... 3weeks... thats how long she will be in france visiting her mother... how i wish she didnt have to make the trip... at first, right up till i was on my way to meet my family today for dinner, i didnt think that it was really such a big deal or that i would feel lonely without her around for 3 weeks... but when she started msging me while having dinner, did i realise that i will definitely miss her when she isnt around... i already started missing her as we msged... 3weeks, i told her is not a very long time, it will pass very quickly... i wonder if im trying to assure her or m i trying to convince myself... luckily, i will be real busy with camp stuff this month so i wont have enough time to accompany her as well... so i should prolly be thankful... i really hope she will take care of herself while she is there and that we would still be able to msg and call each other regularly...
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