at last, its over... the issue has been settled... i no longer have to feel guilty or feel bad about it... and i no longer have to spend my time thinking if its the right thing to do... yep... its over between me n eileen... i feel that this would be the best course of action for us now... we arent meant for each other... its over not because we have too many problems, but we just arent made for each other... she's different from me in many aspects... should have seen it earlier, but at least it isnt too late...
for now im going to enjoy my new found freedom... singlehood ;)
Friday, June 29, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
How True
was having a drink with seng the other day, and we were talking about our lives... suddenly, we started to hum some tunes... he then told me something about the different types of singing... basically there are 3 types of singing...
the first type is whereby people sing purely for the fun of it... these are the peopl who meet up with frenz to go singing, be it at home, or to singing lounges...
the second type is people who join singing competitions, and try to mimic the original singers in order to score points with the judges and the audiences...
but no matter how nice it may seem to be, nothing beats the third type of singing... and that is singing from the heart, singing with their feelings totally into the words... these are the people who really know what they are singing, as though the lyrics of the songs are what their lives have been, or even what they are going through at the moment... they are the ones who can bring out the best in the songs, even if they are not great singers...
the first type is whereby people sing purely for the fun of it... these are the peopl who meet up with frenz to go singing, be it at home, or to singing lounges...
the second type is people who join singing competitions, and try to mimic the original singers in order to score points with the judges and the audiences...
but no matter how nice it may seem to be, nothing beats the third type of singing... and that is singing from the heart, singing with their feelings totally into the words... these are the people who really know what they are singing, as though the lyrics of the songs are what their lives have been, or even what they are going through at the moment... they are the ones who can bring out the best in the songs, even if they are not great singers...
Life is a Mess
my life right now is a mess...
im clearing off and leave, but there's nothing much for me to do... tot could find 1-2 days kind of jobs to do, to kill time as well as to earn some cash, but cant find any yet... and i dont even know whether i will be able to clear my leave/off in peace, all the way till i ord... keep getting calls from ppl in camp asking me this and that... just feel so irritated...
i used to think that i should be ok studying accounts and finance... didnt seem too difficult when i first decided on it... now that i looked through some of the modules, i realised that it is not as simple as it seems... im now having doubts about my ability to cope with it... will it be a disaster just like my biotech? but i know no matter how hard it is, i will be able to do well, because im motivated, driven by a reason to do well...
i always thought that in order for me to forget someone is to fall in love with someone else, only then will i be able to let go off the past... but i realised that its not true at all... after the previous relationship, i fell in love with another girl, or so i thought... i thought that she will help me forget the previous relationship, but its not happening... for the past few weeks, i have been thinking if its because i still cant let go of the past, or she's not the one for me... i have been thinking if the best option for us now is to break out, since the time we have been together is not very long... but, its not fair to her as i was the one who wanted it in the first place... but no matter how much i try to think about it, try to come to a decision, i just cant find the answer to my problem... do u know that, if it was my previous gf, i couldnt stand not meeting her for 2 days... i even want to meet everyday if possible... but now, i dont feel anything if i dont meet her... i just dont have the urge to meet up or even call her... can someone please tell me whats wrong and what should i do? i dont want to do something in which i will regret in the future, but i just dont want to drag things on anymore... suddenly, single seems so nice........................................
all of a sudden, i wish i was suffering from amnesia... then i wouldnt have to think about or remember any of these problems... but running away from the problems doesnt seem to be my way of doing things does it?
im clearing off and leave, but there's nothing much for me to do... tot could find 1-2 days kind of jobs to do, to kill time as well as to earn some cash, but cant find any yet... and i dont even know whether i will be able to clear my leave/off in peace, all the way till i ord... keep getting calls from ppl in camp asking me this and that... just feel so irritated...
i used to think that i should be ok studying accounts and finance... didnt seem too difficult when i first decided on it... now that i looked through some of the modules, i realised that it is not as simple as it seems... im now having doubts about my ability to cope with it... will it be a disaster just like my biotech? but i know no matter how hard it is, i will be able to do well, because im motivated, driven by a reason to do well...
i always thought that in order for me to forget someone is to fall in love with someone else, only then will i be able to let go off the past... but i realised that its not true at all... after the previous relationship, i fell in love with another girl, or so i thought... i thought that she will help me forget the previous relationship, but its not happening... for the past few weeks, i have been thinking if its because i still cant let go of the past, or she's not the one for me... i have been thinking if the best option for us now is to break out, since the time we have been together is not very long... but, its not fair to her as i was the one who wanted it in the first place... but no matter how much i try to think about it, try to come to a decision, i just cant find the answer to my problem... do u know that, if it was my previous gf, i couldnt stand not meeting her for 2 days... i even want to meet everyday if possible... but now, i dont feel anything if i dont meet her... i just dont have the urge to meet up or even call her... can someone please tell me whats wrong and what should i do? i dont want to do something in which i will regret in the future, but i just dont want to drag things on anymore... suddenly, single seems so nice........................................
all of a sudden, i wish i was suffering from amnesia... then i wouldnt have to think about or remember any of these problems... but running away from the problems doesnt seem to be my way of doing things does it?
Friday, June 22, 2007
Friday, June 15, 2007
Going Thru Some Problems
problems for me never seem to end... just when i can see the light, i see more problems appearing... been doing some thinking recently... alot of thoughts keep entering my mind, and until now i dont have the answers to my doubts...
recently, i realised that singlehood isnt as bad as it seems... i seem to want to be single now then to be attached... maybe its because im tired of relationships already... all the unhappiness, all the doubts, all the hurt that relationships cause, im just too tired... maybe its because i cant convince myself to put in my 100% into the current relationship... after 2 failed relationships in which i gave my all, i just cant afford to subject myself to get too emotionally attached, lest the pain it might bring in the future...
when i look at the people around me already starting to earn money, i just cant help but feel useless... here i am, still stuck with studying while they are earing their own pay for themselves... feel hopeless =(
recently, i realised that singlehood isnt as bad as it seems... i seem to want to be single now then to be attached... maybe its because im tired of relationships already... all the unhappiness, all the doubts, all the hurt that relationships cause, im just too tired... maybe its because i cant convince myself to put in my 100% into the current relationship... after 2 failed relationships in which i gave my all, i just cant afford to subject myself to get too emotionally attached, lest the pain it might bring in the future...
when i look at the people around me already starting to earn money, i just cant help but feel useless... here i am, still stuck with studying while they are earing their own pay for themselves... feel hopeless =(
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Something To Ponder About
Something to ponder about:
i had a friend who once told me, there are 2 types of girls.
the first type is those who doesnt care who she ends up with as long as she knows that her partner is able to support her and give her a family. She doesnt care if she is really in love with her partner at all.
the second type is those who puts love above material needs. Even if her partner cannot afford to give her anything, or is a nobody, she just loves him for who she is.
-= i wonder if this is true =-
i had a friend who once told me, there are 2 types of girls.
the first type is those who doesnt care who she ends up with as long as she knows that her partner is able to support her and give her a family. She doesnt care if she is really in love with her partner at all.
the second type is those who puts love above material needs. Even if her partner cannot afford to give her anything, or is a nobody, she just loves him for who she is.
-= i wonder if this is true =-
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