Its Been One Month

yep... exactly one month has passed since we broke up... time seems to fly so fast... in these past month, i still think of you everyday... i missed all the things that we used to do and all the times we spent together... our laughter and quarrels... really wished i could have turned back time so that i can hold u in my arms again...

im glad and happy for you that u have moved on with your life and found someone better than me to take care of you... dont ever be like me... im just a failure when it comes to love... maybe im destined to be alone...

just watched finished a serial drama with my parents... whats the story about is not important... the important part was that the leading actress and the leading actor resembled our situation... they came from different family backgrounds and values in life... realising this, she decided to break up with the guy, and no matter how hard the guy tries to convince her that they can overcome the problems n barriers between them, she still chose to break up with him because she didnt want to wait for a few years only to find that they are unsuitable for each other and regret the decision she made... the only difference between them n us is that at the end of the show, they decided to give it a try to overcome, not like us... u chose to give it up n no matter what i do or promise just didnt change the fact that we broke up...

maybe u are right... who knows what will happen in a few years time when we both grow older... maybe we will miss one another again then... maybe we might get back together again... im just deceiving myself right now... i know its almost impossible, but let me keep that bit of hope... i still remember what i said to u the night we broke up... i hope u remember cause thats a promise i will keep... the key will be the proof... it will be our promise...

atm, im just putting on a pretence... i dont want u to worry about me... cause i dont need ur sympathy... n i dont want ur kindness... and most of all i dont want to destroy the friendship that we have now... forgive me for being unable to let u go... forgive me for loving u too deeply to let u go so easily... im broken up inside, but u wont get to see the tears i cry... cause its just me now...