Success and True Love

All these while i have been doing a lot of thinking... what was it that went wrong... what was it that caused the relationship to just end like that... at first, i couldnt find an answer to any of the questions that keep appearing in my mind... its almost driving me crazy... finally, i came to understand or so i think i have...

suddenly i just feel that in life, being successful is what makes one happy... if u are not successful, if you dont have money, if u dont have a place in society, ur as good as done for... when u dont have these factors, u start to lose things that u hold important in your life, people look at you in a different way, like ur some kind of alien...

i used to believe that in life - money, success, and a place in society - is not what makes one happy... and they are definitely not what makes a person... but after this incident, i realised that without these, u are nothing... i learnt it the hard way this time... when ur rich, u are able to spend on things that you like, things that others like, to impress others... when ur financially capable, u can just about get anything u want... u compare a rich working guy to a guy who due to personal commitments hasnt started work... u compare a graduate with a person who hasnt begun his undergrad studies... u compare one who has a high status in a big company with one who hasnt had the chance to start work... look at all these examples, which one holds the advantage...

i wont say that all girls will go for the guy that has everything, but the society has changed so much from the past that past traditions no longer work the same way any longer... in the past, i would still believe that true love exist... i would believe that people look for love more than what can be satisfied materialistically... but look at the society now... if true love did exist, would there be so many heartbroken people out there, just waiting for their wounds to heal n to wait to fall in love again... and would there still be people who after such a long time, still find that their wounds hasnt healed, and each day they are crying out for them to be at peace... if true love really exist, would there still be so many lonely hearts out there...

i also used to think that love means to be able to accept the shortcomings of one another, to be able to believe that ur partner will always think for the both of you... i used to believe in true love, but not anymore... maybe one day someone will teach me how to love, and prove me wrong that true love does exist after all, but thats when it happens...

maybe im wrong, maybe all these that i have said is just thinking on my part, but this is exactly how im feeling right now... and i have never felt so strongly about things before...

for me now, im targetting my success n planning out my route... some of u may find that its a total change in my thinking, but that's because i changed due to circumstances...